Well, I am definately a "blog virgin" so this is all new to me. I found this site through another site so here I am.

I am in the process of ending a relationship that lasted far too long. You see I got duped into dating a married man....how did this happen you ask?

I answered a handsome man on an internet dating site. He had been chatting with me for quite some time so I finally agreed to meet this man for a drink. First glance when I saw him I knew I was in trouble. He was just my type. Tall/dark/handsome and the most beautiful blue eyes I had ever seen.

I slide into the stool next to him and we procede to talk nonstop for hours. Very easy, very comfortable. I was on cloud nine.

We began dating exclusively probably within that first month, I could call him...no flags things were fine. I had surgery a few months later and he took care of me with such compassion. I was in LOVE!

After this was the third month and I finally started seeing the red flags. I could call him but I couldn't GO to his house, his stories of why were not adding up, many different things. I gave himt he oportunity to actually TELL me what I already knew.

He uttered the words "I am married" the first time on the phone. I would NEVER date a married man if I had known from the get go but he had me hooked and that is why I didn't slam the phone down and never look back. I believed naively all the things that he told me, that he WAS going to get a divorce as soon as the money situation improved, that he WAS going to get a divorce when his son got a little older, that there was NO LOVE in the marriage, that they NEVER had sex.....all the things that all the married men tell idiots like me who believe them.

I spent the past 2 1/2 years waiting, feeling guilty, hoping that he would leave and finally after praying long and hard for God to help me get out of this entirely sinful predicatment that I had gotten myself into, I cut off all contact and told him exactly how I felt.

I told him that of course it is wrong, that I would never had spent that much time with a married man if he hadn't stolen my heart first, that I am not willing to live a lie, I am not willing to lie to my children, my parents, my friends about the situation.

It has been 3 weeks and for the first few weeks I felt so happy, so impowered and so proud of myself and I still do but now the loneliness is sneaking in and making this very difficult.

I am hoping that I may get some positive feedback and some help to aid my broken heart through this. Please don't bash me because I already feel bad enough about what I have done.

I am scared to death that I am going to get some bad Karma coming my way for messing around with someone else's husband.

Anyway, thanks for letting me vent.

God Bless
Azmiranda